Seasons of Life

One thing I am learning on this journey towards simple living is that we go through seasons in our lives, and shouldn’t try to fight them.

When I graduated college, I never really had any expectations for my life other than finding a job. I guess I assumed I would get married and have children, but I didn’t plan on anything or have big expectations. Additionally, I didn’t think there was another plan other than job, marriage, children and life in the suburbs.

When I got a job within a month after graduating, in a suburb 30 minutes from where I grew up, I jumped at the chance to move there. My husband, then boyfriend, moved close once he got a job. After our wedding, we rented a house, and then bought a house in the next suburb over.

Fast forward twenty some years, two kids, two dogs, numerous cars, and possessions later, we are still in the suburbs living a "standard" life. I never questioned where we were at along the way. Yes, I did stay home with our children, go back to school, and switch jobs a few times, but I just kept moving forward.

Looking back, I realized I just went along with the changes in our seasons of life. For some reason, this journey towards simple living has me fighting these seasons, and it isn’t working.

I was fighting working full time in a corporate job. I wanted to move to a smaller house, in a smaller community and have more flexibility in our lives. I wanted to spend tons of time exercising, maybe join a gym or buy winter biking clothes. I wanted to work at home, or for myself. I got caught up in the dream of making money blogging.

The problem is is that I am forcing this on myself at a time when my family is not ready for it. Our son is attending a local college. My job really does give me flexibility when I am at work, despite a sometimes heavy workload. I don’t bring work home with me, so that is another good thing about it. Our house is paid for and provides ample room for all who still live here, without being overly big or difficult to maintain.

Furthermore, the more I learn about online blogging to make money, the more I realize it is not within my personality. Plus, the idea of it has been causing me great stress as I research and research to learn more about it.

Instead of all of this, I need to learn to accept where I am at this season in our lives. Does that mean I should just say forget it to the rest of my ideas? No, but they need to happen gradually and naturally, and not be forced upon myself or my family.

I still have a goal to work at home, something I did part time for five years and know I am capable of doing again. I still want to exercise a lot, but I am finding pockets of time that work with our family time, instead of against it.

As such, I have spent the last month digging through my mind to find ways to bring back peace. The whole reason I started this simple living journey, was to live a peaceful life. Instead, I got caught up in the whirlwind of trying to change my life.

One of the things I realize I need to do is set this blog aside for awhile. I don’t know how long that will be or if I will ever pick it back up. In its place, I am reviving a blog I attempted to start two years ago on quilting (link to blog).

The reasoning for this is two fold. First, as I was determining what I really like to do, I looked through my Pinterest page and saw that all the posts I pinned for simple living, reducing stress, making money online etc, were because I thought I had to work towards making money from blogging.

If I looked at the Pins I really get excited about, they were my personal ones for quilting, exercise and recipes that appealed to me. Throw in a few pins on outfits I like, and random household ideas, and that was me. Not the blogging for money pins.

So I cleaned out my Pinterest account. A little digging through my digital life and I was excited to see that I didn’t delete my old blog. (And also realized I have grown as a writer!) I haven’t posted much new there yet, because I am trying to go slow - not always easy for me.

Second, I would still like to earn some passive income some day, and something I know how to do is create quilt patterns. In fact, I never follow anyone else's patterns, I always seem to make my own. This is something I can slowly work on and put out there.

Oh and the exercise thing? After a few days of biking in cold weather, I nixed that idea and am looking into hiking boots instead. That is something my husband and I can do year round with little effort (ie no bikes to pack up or gear to buy). Plus, I like taking nature pictures, like this waterfall we found on a nearby trail.

Who knows, I may change my mind again one day, but for this season in life, this is what I feel I need to do.

The slow lane in the Big Easy.

The slow lane of the freeway is for those who choose to drive at a slower speed than everyone else. Ironically, they are usually driving at the posted speed limit while others travel at increasingly higher speeds.

In the end, everyone gets to their destination, some a little quicker than others. This destination could be a physical destination, a mental one, or even an item on your To Do list.

It seems to be human nature to go faster and get there sooner, pushing through the journey in our haste, finding annoyance at things in our way.

What if we tried to live life in the slow lane? What might happen?

Well, we would still get to our destination. We would probably even get there with less stress and angst. We might even enjoy the journey as much as we enjoy the destination.

It is hard to drive in the slow lane. We feel like we are missing out because others are going faster and getting there sooner. They are going to have more time at their destination.

It is also hard to enjoy the journey when you keep thinking about your destination. We seem to be programmed to keep looking forward instead of enjoying the moment.

Currently, I have been thinking a lot about trying to live in the slow lane. Taking my time, and not worrying so much about the next thing.

It is hard. You may feel lazy when you are not accomplishing as much as you could with your time.

However, we know that if we push ourselves to accomplish more, we will feel stress and angst.

Attempting to live in the present is not easy, but it can really change your life.

Making such a shift doesn't happen overnight. It happens gradually, slowly. Small benefits seen with each decision to live in the slow lane help you stay there longer.

Try not to look ahead to your destination, or To Do list. Try to enjoy the moment in the slow lane and see how you feel.

Chances are, you will want to return.

Do you live life in the fast lane or the slow lane? Can you enjoy the journey without always looking at the next destination?

5 Steps to Include Creativity in your Life

Children are naturally creative. They play with toys, make up stories, and create artistic items with zeal and gusto. Something happens as we get older. Our inhibitions take over and we become critical of our work. Creativity seems to fall by the wayside.

However, we are all still creative. It is in us somewhere. Whether we create delicious meals, fix cars, tend a garden, or actually paint, sing, write, or build. Creativity is an important part of who we are and adds an incredible dimension to our lives.

Elizabeth Gilbert wrote an excellent book about this - Big Magic. I had to read parts of it twice because it really struck a chord with me; though maybe not the way it did with most people. Her book really encourages you to get out there and express your creativity - don't let fear control you, embrace your creative drive!

Your children will benefit by watching you create. A good role model does instead of tells. You will benefit by being creative. Creating brings about a sense of accomplishment, pride, and positive mental health.Your family can create together! This is one activity that has no boundaries and all can participate.

My life has been full of creativity - from making Barbie doll clothes with a scissors and tape, to learning how to sew my own clothes including my wedding dress. I also knit my own sweaters in high school, and made clothing for our children. My sewing talents took a turn toward quilting, and with my aunt, we sell quilted wall hangings at an art show each year.

Music has been a part of my life from my first piano lesson in second grade, to parades at Disneyland with our high school marching band. My career for the last ten years has focused around teaching, and I am energized by creating unique lessons and activities.

No, I don't think I have a problem expressing my creativity personally or publicly. What I didn't realize until I read her book was that creativity is a part of me. I could no more turn my back on it than I could on my family.

On our journey towards simple life, I have tried to align my time with activities that add value to my life; and creativity is one of them. However, now that I work full time outside the house, it is hard for me to create as much as I used to.

To give me focus, I turned to a study aid I used fairly regularly with my middle school students to help remember something - acronyms. Here is a plan to help you accomplish more creatively.

F: Find Time

As any parent knows, especially those of us who work full time, finding time to devote to creativity is like a juggling act. I often feel like I have three balls in the air and if I catch the creativity one, two others drop. I love having a whole weekend afternoon to sew or write, but that just doesn't always happen.

Instead of lamenting this, be flexible in finding time that works for you. After dinner seems to be a good time for me to sit down for a half an hour, or an hour if I am lucky. Most of what I do can be broken down into small steps that can be worked on during this time frame.

Maybe you can find quiet time early in the morning, or in the car while waiting to pick up your kids. Nap time was always a productive time. Lunch time at work can also allow you time to work on a project. A lady I worked with would always pull out her crocheting during lunch.

O: Focus on ONE Thing at a Time

If I am writing on my computer, I tend to have multiple internet tabs open. Multi-tasking is never productive for me and I get distracted easily. Also, I tend to have multiple projects going on at once. Therefore I hop from one to the next, never finishing anything.

While working on a project, you will be most productive if you focus your attention on just that one thing. Even if it is for fifteen minutes, you will be surprised how much you get done. With multiple projects in the works, pick one and focus on that one for a certain time period.

For me, this means moving into a different room with my laptop, picking a time limit, or setting a small goal. You may find it helpful to designate days where you only focus on one type of project.

C: Curate Your Materials

Facing a large amount of supplies from which to work from can be stressful and overwhelming. You have so much to choose from, it is hard to make a choice of what to use and where to start.

Last year, I finally curated my fabric collection. I know what I normally use, and what makes me happy to work with. Additionally, seven years worth of quilting books were passed along to someone else because they just caused me anxiety to look at.

With a smaller, well curated collection of supplies, you are free to create instead of worrying about using everything that you have. You have a much clearer focus.

Supplies can also mean options. You can easily spend an hour searching through Pinterest posts for a pattern or idea. Pick one and give it a chance instead of overwhelming yourself with too many options.

U: Understand Limitations and Obstacles

Limitations include time, skills, supplies - anything that won’t change fast. You can definitely address and change these limitations over time; but in the short term, you just need to understand and work around them.

Obstacles include those things that constantly prevent you from creativity. These obstacles are both positive and negative. My family is a positive obstacle. I want to spend time with them, yet that time prevents me from creating. Finding a balance is the key with positive obstacles.

Negative obstacles, like criticism from others or yourself, need to go. We are adults. We are wonderful, highly productive, creative, unique adults and we have every right to create things that bring us joy.

S: Celebrate Success

Once you have completed something, celebrate! You can celebrate privately or publicly. You might not be as brave as I was to create a wedding dress to wear in front of 100 people, but you certainly can find small ways to celebrate.

Creating a collection, in real life or digitally, shows you how much you have accomplished. I have given away and donated almost every quilted item I made, but I look through photos of them once in awhile to admire what I created.

Finally, if you have children, continue to support their creativity no matter which direction it heads. Design creative projects the whole family can contribute to. Fortunately, I came from a very creative family and it was an everyday part of our lives and jobs.

What helps you encourage creativity in yourself and your family?

Are You Really Listening?

“Mom! Are you listening?” When your children, spouse, friends, coworkers talk to you, are you really listening?

In these days of constant access to screen time, we tend to have conversations while we simultaneously surf the web, check status updates, read email etc. and only half listen to the other person. You are physically right next to the person, but mentally in another place.

Or maybe you set aside your phone/computer, but you formulate a response in your mind. You think about what you want to say as soon as the person stops talking. Again, your mind isn’t paying attention because your brain is only concerned with what you will say next.

Too often I look at my phone during conversations with others. Or I cook, or finish a project, and don't look at the other person. I am trying hard to change mostly because I feel it is rude. Last month, our son walked in the door with a pair of boots in his hand. I put my phone down, and looked at him as he told me how he got the boots. He then went on to tell me two more stories of things that happened during the day. Three stories out of our 18 year old son in ten minutes is a record. It happened because I put my phone down and looked at him.

Why should we fully listen to others? Focused attention shows respect and states you care about them. One of the best things we can do for our children is let them know we care and demonstrate their importance.

Relationships built on respect and caring flourish. People who feel respected and cared for develop positive self-worth. All of this combined proves the value we place on them as a person. Saying we care is one thing, demonstrating it is another.

People open up and express feelings when they feel valued; open and honest communication results. In today’s world, the ability to establish a loving relationship with your child is crucial. Finally, when we respect and value others, they respect and value us.

I find that listening just to listen, and not worry about formulating a response, allows me to enjoy the conversation and the person talking. Also, you never know where a conversation might go. You can learn more with your mind open to listening.

How can we improve our listening skills?

Look at the Person

Look at the person when they speak to you. It is amazing how this changes the conversation. It really heightens the level of engagement. It also lets the other person know you are invested in them and what they say. They may be apt to tell you more, and the conversation becomes more meaningful.

Listen to Learn

When I listen to learn, I stop worrying about what I want to say. I focus on every word the person says and try to internalize it. My brain focuses on the message. As I grow older, I find more ways to learn from others. Listening to learn is especially helpful at work.


After the person stops talking, repeat back to them what you heard. Ask for confirmation that you understand their message. Give them the chance to clarify if you missed something important. When the conversation involves a request, repeat their request. Now ask your questions or give advice as appropriate. If they told you a story, respond positively and end the conversation on a good note.

Practicing these techniques takes effort, but brings great reward. What tips can you add?

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Changing My American Dream

The American Dream: A big house in the ‘burbs, nice cars, in-style clothes and furniture, exotic vacations… You know what I am talking about - the “thing” everyone is striving for. The goal we have to attain. The constant, yet elusive carrot-on-the-stick that we feel we need to reach.

Yep. That American Dream. I had one too, but I changed it last year and I am so much happier for it.

Ironically, if you google “The American Dream”, the definition that pops up is as follows:

the ideal that every US citizen should have an equal opportunity
to achieve success and prosperity through hard work, 
determination, and initiative.

This I have not given up on; this I strive for. It is the lake house, and all the trappings that I gave up. What happened? I discovered simple life and minimalism.

Minimalist is probably not how I would describe myself. That is until you really start reading what minimalism can be today, and the Minimalists say it best:

What is minimalism? If we had to sum it up in a single sentence, 
we would say, Minimalism is a tool to rid yourself of life’s excess 
in favor of focusing on what’s important
—so you can find happiness, fulfillment, and freedom.

Yes, this past year, I have been striving to rid my life of excess in favor of focusing on what is important and it turns out, that house on the lake is just not what I want. Late last summer we finally agreed to sell our boat. It was either that or buy a house on the water so we would use it more. Yes, that seems silly, to buy a house just to use a boat, but there it is.

I began looking at listings for homes on lakes within 45 minutes of where I work, and I found they would either cost too much in mortgage and upkeep, or they were so uncomfortable looking that we would have to completely remodel them - a huge headache and expense. Not to mention the increased commute each day.

In comparison to how I feel living in our current home, which is a very comfortable feeling, they just didn’t cut it. I have come to the realization this past year that we have enough, and my quest has turned towards making our life more simple and easier. I love being at peace and I can do that right here.

Changing my American Dream meant re-evaluating my goals in life and working towards new ones. Here are some steps you can take to do this:

What makes you happy now?

Define what truly makes you happy and structure your life around those things. It may take time to sort this out, and a few trials and errors, but you should be able to find what adds value to your life. In this list, include people who make you happy so that you find ways to include them in your life. After making this list, how many items on the list were “things” such as a big house, fancy jewelry or luxury cars? I admit that I love driving my pickup truck, but it was a well-planned purchase that fit into our overall plan. Moving towards the realization that you have enough, and can be happy with what you have, is liberating.

What detracts from your happiness?

These are things you want to eliminate. Debt, a constant struggle to pay the bills, working your butt off just to survive, or not spending enough time with people or on things you enjoy. These detract from happiness, and your goals should align with reducing these as you increase the previous list of things that make you happy. Most things that detract from our happiness cause us stress, and stress can physically harm our bodies and our minds. Make some plans, and chart out small steps to remove these things from your life.

How do you spend your time?

Maybe you have reduced that list of things that detract from your happiness, but is your time well spent? Do you derive pleasure and satisfaction from the things you do? Or, do you have a lot of time-wasters? Do you take the steps to do the things on your bucket list? Set a few of them as your goals now, not in the future as you keep saying “Some day”. Spending even little bits of time doing something you love can improve your mood and allow you to find larger pockets of time to do them.

In the end, it was truly life changing for me to go through these steps and change my American Dream. My new dream is peacefulness, and like the original definition of the American Dream, I am willing to work hard for this success.

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Looking Up

Lookup to the sky. You’ll never find rainbows if you’re looking down. Charlie Chaplin

When I walk or bike, I find myself looking at the ground in front of me so that I don’t trip, or ride over an obstacle that might cause me to fall. Sometimes I feel this is how we look at life, down. Down in the mires of whatever we are doing, without paying attention to what is going on around us. In today's society, people are looking down at their phone, more than they are looking up at others around them. While missing out on what is going on around us is one downfall to looking down all the time; I have found another reason why looking up is better: Joy.

When I look up, I see this wonderful world around me. My spirits are uplifted, literally and figuratively. When I look up even higher, up at the sky, I feel an immense sense of peace and wonder. I am in awe. My whole mood changes in that moment. I find that whatever I was thinking about is gone, replaced by beauty. On my walk today, I was surrounded by blue sky and beautiful cloud formations. Looking up was transforming. 

There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope. Bernard Williams

While I’ve struggled with my drive to work each morning, I am forever delighted by the sunrises I see along the way. Each one is so unique, so beautiful and so uplifting. I am always tempted to stop along the way to try and capture the beauty of the sun rising above the city as I get closer to work. Since this isn’t safe, I have found ways to stop right after I leave my house, or at a stoplight, to capture the amazing creations.

Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. ~Rabindranath Tagore

While in Key West years ago, everyone would stand at Mallory Square to watch the sun set. All three nights, crowds clapped for an orange ball falling into the water. It was amazing, but not as beautiful as the sunsets we have at home with clouds in them.  As we go through life, our days can not always be clear blue skies. There are bound to be clouds that pass through. Those clouds are the interesting parts, the memories, the pain, the relief, the sorrow, the happiness and the joy. Clouds add to the beauty of the sky and they add dimensions to our lives. 

How We Ended Up With So Much Stuff

This month I am slowly working on replacing the shelf liner paper in all our kitchen cabinets and pantry. It is giving me a really good opportunity to touch everything in the kitchen and decide if we really need it/still want it. We did this a couple of years ago when we removed the cabinets above the breakfast bar and reorganized, but we still have a lot of things.
Some wedding presents, some from my grandmother's house, 
and some I "needed". All. Done.
This round of decluttering has me thinking about how we ended up with so much stuff. We never really earned big salaries, and felt we lived below our means. Yet, we accumulated so much stuff. How did this happen? Gifts and free stuff aside, we bought a lot of it. Why?

Instant Gratification

Living below our means still meant spending money. We have always been good at saving, but I think we could have saved more. Looking back, we often felt it was more important to purchase things, than to put that money into savings. A $10 purchase excited us more than $10 in savings. It was that instant gratification, that quick high we got purchasing something. $10 towards savings didn't quite do that. Today, I am much more excited about not spending that $10 knowing that at the end of the month, all those $10 will add up to something I can put in savings.

Making Life Easier/Better

Advertisements are purposely written to convince you to buy something, but sometimes just looking at an item gives me the idea it will make my life easier or better. Whether it is a kitchen gadget, or camping gear, we decided we needed it to improve our experiences. This is definitely the biggest category by far of all the things we purchased over the years. Our camping gear grew astronomically until we literally had to take a utility trailer with us to go tent camping. Every two years we upgraded to the newest phones, leaving a drawer of old ones it their wake. Kitchen cupboards, CD cabinets, tools, closets of clothes, all grew with each passing year.

Changing Seasons of Life

Here our purchases were often necessary, but still could have been reigned in. Children need things, but not as much as we purchased. Our camping life went from a tent, to a pop-up, to a parked camper, to a cottage and finally back to two tents. All the money spent along the way was a learning experience, but I don’t think we thought them through enough. We had the money, so why not.

We are by no means perfect, and we still buy things, even for the above reasons. However, over the last year, I have been trying very hard to analyze each purchase to see if I could a) do without it entirely, b) find a substitute with something I already own, or c) buy it with very purposeful intentions. A big win for me was a trip to the clothing store with our daughter yesterday; after an hour of following her around, I didn’t find one single thing I wanted for myself. It made me feel very happy :)